Poems
All poems by year, newest first. Almost everything is about life, so no categories — only the cycles that formed on their own.
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- Nov 1Word AutomatWe hold forth or we curse, and that is that.
- Oct 31A Dream in the WindowMy dream is bashful,
- Oct 28Who Among Us?Well, who among us
- Oct 24The BlanketIn the fight for the blanket,
- Oct 16I ExistMy existence
- Sep 2Flight Is What Was PromisedInstead, my shoes rubbed my palms raw.
- Aug 30What If It's ForeverThe pain's dug in and sends its regards…
- Aug 30Please, Stop, My FriendSit down at the table. Let's just be near.
- Aug 30In Whirlpools, Spirals and CyclesIn whirlpools, in spirals and cycles
- Aug 30I Walked to You a Long Time, Not Knowing If I ShouldSplit my will into shares. Time into zeros.
- Aug 24Making Up for Lost TimeMake up for what was missed.
- Aug 24Leaving Again, for GoodNot holding a grudge against the fate
- Aug 16Moment, I'm Drowning in YouTurning into you.
- Aug 16In My Head, This Endless RamblingA broken fire striker.
- Aug 5Dream BigI make myself a promise:
- Jul 26I'll Never Fall in Love with the WorldThe way Uncle Jesus did.
- Jul 25People Aren't Books, You KnowNot plush, and not teddy bears.
- Jul 24Larisa the CockroachFine-looking, from top to toe,Cockroaches
- Jul 22I Was Sure I Saw the SignsBut kept on sitting, twiddling my thumbs.
- Jul 20Taking Myself Apart Piece by PieceEvery step that the road soaked in,
- Jul 9What If It's All a Lie?And the ball beneath our feet is flat,
- Jul 7When There's No Timelater you can't get by without pain.
- Jul 6I'm With YouLet go of these silly thoughts.
- Jul 5ReadyI'm ready for any plot.
- Jul 3The Eyes Are Silent, Losing to the MouthFrozen like ships in port,
- Jul 1ImageThey kept changing you… fine, whatever.
- Jun 25When You Don't Know Who or Wherewill rescue, stuck in trouble there
- Jun 20Almost Took Off, Already on TiptoeThe ground's hanging by a hair
- Jun 10Your Conscience… Is It for Sale?— A couple grand, in bucks…
- Jun 7It's Made UpCrumpled and out the window,
- Apr 23How Hard It Is for Us to Be Born Humanarriving in the world in pain and screaming.
- Apr 3I Can't Not Write, Though You Kill MeI can't not make up new lines,
- Mar 19The Porridge of My Own ThoughtsI tracked it and was horrified.
- Mar 17Every Glance Has a MeaningEvery breath is worth more than numbers.
- Mar 16What Is to Be Done?What to do when alien
- Mar 15If God Is a Wise Parentthen we are disobedient children.
- Mar 12An Ordinary RoomAbove them the Moon calmly lights up and, its gaze brushing the edges of the blanket, lifts the weariness away with silver light. The family quartet, bathing in drowsy bliss,
- Mar 11SilenceThe gods took out their fishing rods. People got into bulldozers.
- Mar 11Arkasha the Cockroach (and Also the Cockroaches Dasha, Pasha and Sasha)There once lived a hermit, the cockroach Arkasha.Cockroaches
- Mar 10Vorobyov the CockroachBoring right up to the brim —Cockroaches
- Mar 7The TrainShe threw herself down, no longer able
- Mar 6PowerversityOut of the unis poured
- Mar 6Ignat the CockroachHandsome, clever, and rich —Cockroaches
- Mar 6Cockroaches Valeria and SergeiOh come on, understand, I just don't believe! —Cockroaches
- Mar 5Fyodor the CockroachHe's always fresh and full of beans,Cockroaches
- Mar 5Gennady the CockroachAlways somehow behind…Cockroaches
- Mar 5Karina the CockroachAlways somehow off to the sideCockroaches
- Mar 4Show them your faceNot for fame, or a well-crafted rhyme.
- Mar 4Expanding Inwardnarrowing outward.
- Feb 22Out of silence, out of nightOh come on… out of the brain. Then again,
- Feb 22Everyone cries over their ownmaybe with someone, two alone,
- Feb 21Good dog, a Balto to the rescueDrip, drip… onto a swollen crown Tie it up and lie down. It takes time. And the right to ban all help. Even a doctor's note that you're a temporary vegetable. A heart of stone — to Dutch Michel. Head into your shell like a turtle. Go to the new mall downtown Stroll around H&M and Zara. There on every square metre you'll buy yourself again the shirt off a good guy's back.
- Feb 21I wonder, how's it done, thoughliving predictably, sanely…
- Feb 20He'd have met Her HighnessBut solitude was his sentence, ordered
- Feb 19Drumroll… there's gonna be a crisisThe finest transatlantic bizness.
- Feb 19With some — it's roughWith some — it's loud,
- Feb 19Time is a maw, and the great are its teethTo steal someone's time — that's just crude.
- Feb 18A word falls under the weight of its weightSnagging the ether with its rim.
- Feb 18They have their fun, and she gets rid of itHe's not to her liking… Stuck with a kid…
- Feb 18Creation is nothing but re-creationBut no thief, and no junkie. Quality's spoiling.
- Feb 13A Theater of Soundof the loud fart.
- Feb 12Handsome, with a Face Like KenEmpty as a mannequin's soul.
- Feb 12Don't Talk About Silenceit doesn't like sounds at all
- Feb 12The Selfless One — Dethroned by HimselfHe found a queen and rushed into battle.
- Feb 11Not the New TestamentNor the Old.
- Feb 4Bowing Low to the FloorI thank you, for having, without knowing it,
- Feb 2Humiliation Is Like ExpropriationYou were all air… and a needle let you down.
- Feb 1Holy Virgin MaryAnd her untouched hymen!
- Feb 1It Bugs Us Little PeopleThat someone's something there.
- Jan 31The Good, It Lies ThereThe good, it just lies there, like that,
- Jan 31You and I Are Running TogetherMeasuring the road in years.
- Jan 31Fish Think with Their BrainsAnd besides, they don't have a member.
- Jan 31In a World of Healthy MindsYou often pull a dislocation.
- Jan 31I See Them Coming, StumblingThoughts. And they tie themselves in knots.
- Jan 29Eyes Bulging into the DeepEyes bulging out into the deep.
- Jan 29Life Is a War with the WorldOr else with your own weight.
- Jan 28A School of Expensive EatingAnd of useless habits
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- Nov 22Oh WellTo crucify — say, five times or so,
- Nov 21Here, ReadLet the voice in you that isn't through
- Nov 21In the EyesIn eyes worn out,
- Nov 20The Sky Let Fall Clear DropsHere we fly through the layers of air.
- Nov 6Go ForwardOh, screw that — look who showed up! Big joy.
- Nov 4RoutineMy beloved routine —
- Oct 31CloudsCloaking over all my thoughts,
- Oct 28SeenSaw a mortar,
- Oct 27They and YouWhen they said: how could you dare
- Oct 26The King and the EmpressThe king of laws, a raging monarch.
- Oct 23She Holds UsIn her palm she holds us,
- Oct 3You Throw Your Arms Out WideWishing things were as they were.
- Oct 2A Word Roams the Worldof its owner, who's desperately searching for it.
- Oct 2Firebirds Fly Across the Skywith a fairly obvious aim.
- Sep 30The Words Will Gather in a Well-Formed RowA gloss of likeness binds the lines in place.
- Sep 29The Road to Beauty Is a Road You Walk AloneWalking it, you never take your eyes off a point
- Sep 15As it turned out, we never knew each otherAs it turned out, you and I never knew each other.
- Sep 12Where do I hide what I'm ashamed ofBut so it doesn't sting,
- Sep 1I didn't save myself — at least you tryDon't turn into a meek, soundless ornament…
- Aug 12The World of SpaceHis knowledge of the outer world is so paltry,World of things → ideas → cosmos
- Aug 10The World of IdeasWell, hello there, my material one!World of things → ideas → cosmos
- Aug 9The World of ThingsO world, you are so vast!World of things → ideas → cosmos
- Jul 31The moon and stars in a duetAre whispering across the sky with a quill.
- Jul 27A few centuries will pass and vanishInto Lethe, under the crushing weight of daily grind.
- Jul 24Leafing through my digital notebookI realized how much had settled there.
- Jul 18There's no limit to perfectionJust as none to being dumb…
- Jul 18I'm probably no geniusSo we're out of luck, it seems.
- Jul 17Through brains that aren't dopedonly powdered with a gloss
- Jul 8I often dream of my old homeThe gravel road, the gate of blue.
- Jul 1Rare AirThe mirror forgives what the memory does not.
- Jun 18Another night. Another Passion of the ChristOff to the bar at a run to cut out a nasty cyst.
- Jun 16In this tenderness we're like poetsThe virtues of looks are what we've extolled.
- May 13WindThe final fight… the final words' last paragraph.
- May 7Okun charan (Khmer for 'thank you')My road leads to a great big iron bird.
- May 6SunsetPast houses that look like a heron,
- May 5They're generous and simple-heartedAnd stitch their clothing cheap and plain.
- Apr 9I Was Ready to Embrace This GlobeAnd spill out like the waters of spring.
- Mar 23LionsTo my eldest. Zhenya, thank you.
- Mar 19They Break Into My MindMy brains are bursting apart.
- Mar 7Clouds OverheadClouds are drifting overhead.
- Mar 2Couldn't Sleep Till MorningThey were reflashing my firmware on the back end.
- Mar 2It Feels LikeIt feels as if the former bond
- Mar 2I Fix My GazeWhere lights in an endless cascade,
- Feb 21Where to Go?And crowds of greedy eyes are hacking meat.
- Feb 10I Love YouI hope that someday you'll love me this way,
- Jan 3I'll Start LivingSo much went down that never had time to heal.
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- Dec 24Puddles of Big CitiesThe puddles of big cities wait
- Dec 5Let's Take a Dive, BrotherCome on, let's take a dive, my brother,
- Dec 2You live now where only dreams are allowed to embraceI'll drop by unexpectedly, to recall what wasn't ours, in that place.
- Nov 28From the slate roof of the world, raindrops are drippingRight onto the heads of the streams of faceless passers-by.
- Nov 25After the winter, springtime came alongBirds on the branches sang out like a choir,
- Nov 21You exiled me to the edge of the universeAnd I had dreamed of a death, instant and terse.
- Nov 21Doubting's a little bit scaryEveryone round's just waiting for you to fail.
- Nov 21You're so wonderful lying on my chestYou're my music and my favorite instrument. Your figure's lovely as a Spanish guitar. Through the glass the moon lit up your body's silhouette.
- Nov 18The years go by, they flicker past like polesSeen from the micro-windows of a fast express.
- Nov 3Perhaps the wheel of changeBecomes more and more visible
- Nov 2The memories are stronggrenades, assault rifles, infantry forced marches...
- Oct 28I ask my questions, and the answer's only hushBut that's alright, perhaps it's even safer:
- Oct 22When it's whoa-whoa, and you're floating as on fluffWhen love is everywhere, not just in bed and stuff,
- Oct 15Don't rush to get used to a personAnd don't hurry to turn your insides out.
- Oct 8The stone jaws of the mountains closedThe stone jaws of the mountains snapped shut.
- Oct 7Animal fear, burned down to dustScattered as finely dispersed powder,
- Sep 30My heart beats on the ribbed slate of the roofsThoughts rush on like a stream down the gutters.
- Sep 29The same old sneakersAnd socks from a past life.
- Sep 23An unprecedented factTo please a handful of presidents.
- Sep 21How petty, pointless and sickeningTo hurl your grudges headfirst into the dark.
- Sep 9The CycleJoy filled the chambers of the body.From the book
- Aug 26When a person is goneYou can launch paper planes into the sky,
- Aug 21The last term of patience has run outMy God no longer suits your taste.
- Aug 20Don't you dare say you're not the sameDon't you dare whine, like, "I wish I had your years,"
- Aug 14Someone will turn out firstin this senseless race.
- Jul 31We're all afraid, without a pauseBut what, in essence, is our fear?
- Jul 23When words turn into swearingWhen lies become facts, brotherhoods become sects, and thoughts become terror attacks.
- Jul 15Setting OutIn the beauty of an illusory realityFrom the book
- Jul 9What's here is just so, not for realWhat is here — it's just so, not for real.
- Jun 29I've seen beautiful apartmentsTowels folded into little elephants, and toilets that glow.
- Jun 25I was the way you wanted, the only oneI was the way you wanted me, the only one.
- Jun 24Whether a bird flying south in the skiesWhether a bird in the skies flying south.
- Jun 20Veins are rivers, stormy and dangerousEyes that are waiting, eyes that are ravenous,
- Jun 13Bans are crushing freedom's spiritAnd free-for-all lands you in a cell.
- Jun 6We're here for a moment, one short momentLet it make you sad to hear this news.
- May 25The Sky Has Hands TooOnly not everyone can see them.From the book
- May 22How often we lose our wayStepping again into whatever our feet carry us to.
- May 2Through the steady pulse and rush of running bloodFrom the Achilles weakness to the dimples by the brow.
- Apr 24As a citizen of the near-Earth worlds within reachWhere you need no stamp and no visa
- Apr 16Getting AcquaintedWaking from a quiet voice —From the book
- Apr 14A weary character through carriages and barsLike soot smeared over wounds that life has turned to scars.
- Apr 12Let's rejoice every single God-given dayNot defile, but only praise with every word.
- Apr 9Move in, but straight into my heartI'll buy us a big bed
- Apr 6A beautiful seascapeYou forget everything for a while.
- Apr 4Eternal SpiritMy head is like a beehive,From the book
- Apr 3Our Beloved OnesOh, how I long for silence,From the book
- Apr 1HappyTears of delight welling up at every note.From the book
- Mar 29We're all just here for a cup of coffee…Don't think of death before you sleep.
- Mar 27Where to find the one who knows so muchbut not the facts that lie scattered through books?
- Mar 27Landscape, silhouettes, a tear, a chinBuried in wrists. A mute shop window.
- Mar 27Everything on the road has its purposeEven if it's not obvious at first,
- Mar 4Lay me down on the skyLike a hammock of cotton-wool air.
- Mar 2In the morning, saying goodbye to BangkokIn the morning, having said goodbye to Bangkok,
- Feb 27Unhurried, from around the corner, out of doubtSlashing consciousness as with a razor.
- Feb 24No drivers in the snakes of busesThat's how King Rama's city met us.
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- Oct 24No Magomayev, and, alasAt times I'm off-key here and there.
- Oct 24Remember now and thenThe slender figure and the voice
- Oct 3Well then, it seems that He's awakeThe beast that chases and that flees.
- Sep 28A Time for EverythingTo give each thing its proper time,
- Sep 1I made up a character for myselfCalloused hands, kind, soot on his cheeks.
- Aug 6Blizzards blew, the summer warmedThe frozen bodies thawed again,
- Jul 30The Parquet Smeared with Bright Red PaintThe parquet's smeared with bright red paint,
- Jul 30You Speak — I Lend My ShouldersBeneath each word that's spoken
- Jun 16And Now I'm Just Past ThirtyAnd now I'm just a bit past thirty,
- Apr 15Though We're Not Brothers by BloodThough we're not brothers by one father
- Apr 13Among the Multitude of RoadsAmong countless triumphs and failures
- Apr 8Galya, Helium, AngelThe words got all tangled.
- Mar 24We'll Find Each Other, Like at a ConcertIt's just a matter of my laziness.
- Mar 24Where Life Once Gushed Like a SpringNow a mute emptiness glows.
- Mar 13We are trying to explain who we areTo all the creatures which surround us
- Feb 26Masterpieces Don't Come Just Like ThatAnd they don't appear out of nowhere.
- Feb 24The Voice of ReasonSit down calmly and listen to the voice,
- Feb 24I'm Truly GladThat you won't judge, you'll just listen, and say all of this we'll get through.
- Feb 20Brother, What Does It Mean to Save?Just to yank someone out of the jaws
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- Nov 28Man Is the Dance of GodYet acts so wretched and so flawed.
- Oct 16SmileFrom nowhere I run to nowhere at all
- Sep 19Doubting is normalStumbling hurts a little bit more.
- Jul 5Thinking what has to be done for tomorrowsI’m trying to be someone else who just follows
- Apr 16A Conversation of TwoThe soul's question waits for an answer.
- Mar 23That's it — even rhyme won't breathe hereThat's it — even rhyme won't breathe in here.
- Mar 16I'll Take Eternity by the HandAnd go walking on the clouds,
- Mar 14A Conversation Between BrothersBrother 1:
- Jan 9The Power of the SubconsciousYou have the right to discover this inner world,
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- Jul 18Unbelievable and unclearMy thoughts, like stallions, gallop forward, never to return, they run.
- Jul 4The water glitters, casting glintsMy closed eye catches every one.
- May 18Who did this? What's become of us?However much you give — it's never enough!
- May 11Bro, remember how it all went downWe grabbed whatever came around!
- Apr 27The Little Paper PlaneI'm sending you a little paper plane,
- Apr 11Are you here, or just drop bySpeak out straight, or hide inside?
- Apr 9Slowly, inside me, a little child was dyingAnd some Mister started running things in there.
- Apr 8A little child keeps dying in me more and moreHe swears and throws his tantrums, and you often hear him scream.
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before 2021, poems from the book
- Two WordsI want to say so much, so loudly,From the book
- M and MFor many now, life's more frightening than death,From the book
- I Won't Be Afraid…And let loneliness eat me alive —From the book
- WorldsWhy, nursing a grudge against the world,From the book
- Genius of FreedomA crumpled ball thrown into the flame —From the book
- The WhysWhatever's going on in my own world,From the book
- YouCatching sight of You, I go mute,From the book
- An Invitation to VisitWhat's the point of all these arguments over the past?From the book
- FearsStanding in the store beside the register,From the book
- The BathyscapheI threw every shattered thought onto the page.From the book
- MountainsStallions gallop above us,From the book
- Please, Settle DownI'm asking you, settle down, stop your knockingFrom the book
- Decembershaking loose a shimmering dust from the sky.From the book
- PrisonThe grudge inside me had grown so largeFrom the book
- Living YesterdayWe live in yesterday, but not in now,From the book
- Beyond the CloudsWe met inside of me.From the book
- The CupAgainst a blue backdrop, in white flecks,From the book
- A Conversation with My BrotherHello, brother.From the book
- How Many Words Do We Have Left Before Old Agethe kind that fill our eyes with rivers of joy?From the book
- SamsaraNeon lights, shop windows, and pretty sceneryFrom the book
- Awake Every Second, Dreaming with Open Eyesa picture, refracted through transparent tears…From the book
- InspirationHave you ever watched inspiration arrive —From the book
- Don't Build Sandcastles, Don't Build Them!They'll melt away like spring ice.From the book
- To Grandmother'sMaybe everyone's just worn you out by now,From the book